Over the last 18 months I have started to live life. People tell me off for saying this but I do feel that before I was existing but not necessarily living. I understand why people tell me off, and I guess it is all down to contrast. So, I suppose what I should really say is that my life has become busier and more active over the last 18 months! Terminology aside, my blog says it all life:enjoying not enduring! That is what I have definitely been doing. I honestly cannot remember a time in my life when I have enjoyed life more. That really is quite a bold statement – and I’m hoping not to offend anyone who has been a part of my life for years, but this is rally about my attitude to life and no reflection on those who’ve been a part of my life! (I seem to be worried about offending people today – bizarre)!
Anywho, it is today – Easter Sunday – when that all clicks in to place and I realise why I need to be living. I believe that Jesus was God on earth, that he died a horrific death, and that he then rose again to new life. I believe that because of that I can have eternal life. Yes, I believe that that means when I die physically I carry on living with God, but I also believe that that life started the moment I recognised what Christ had done for me – yes me!
If Jesus was willing to go through that for me, then that is why I need to live my life. I have been given a new life to be lived. My life should reflect what God has done, and is doing in and through me.
That all sounds fantastic, and it is. But it is not easy. And believe me, I know, that my life isn’t always that reflection. But… It’s not as if Jesus’ death was a pleasant experience, and all I can do is try.
The last 18 months I have recognised that I am where God wants me to be, and I am doing what God wants me to be doing. Therefore I have to do that to the best of my ability. I have also recognised that it’s not just about being in the right place doing the right thing. But it is about my whole life experience. Life isn’t just about what job we do or what church we go to, it is about how our entire lifestyle works – that has been the change for me.
I have gone to church all my life, for which I am eternally grateful. I chose to get confirmed at 13. I chose to renew my baptism vows in full immersion aged 21. But it was at aged 33 that I truly experienced the gift I had been given in my life, and that I needed to truly live it.
And it was aged 34 that I experienced that God’s promise of eternal life is not a promise for the future, but is my reality for now. The cross, the empty tomb… That’s what it’s ALL about. Happy Easter!