I could have chosen numerous film references for this blog but I have decided to go with Devil’s snare because it encapsulates a lot, and is a perfect metaphor for me at the moment.
In Harry Potter and the Philosophers stone the three main characters get caught in a plant called Devils snare, there’s two things you need to know about Devils snare
1. The more you fight against it the more trapped you become
2. The thing that makes it wilt is sunlight
Hermione is the first to escape the Devils snare because she relaxes, she stops fighting against it, and she becomes free. But typically the boys keep fighting it. Then Hermione starts to poke through the plant to enable sunlight through which wilts the plant and frees the boys.
I feel trapped at the moment. I have underestimated the effect that the grief has had and continues to have, as well as a lot of changes in other aspects of my life. I get frustrated because I don’t feel I am doing my best, well I know that I’m not. I am aware that I cannot help anything that has happened, but that doesn’t stop me from feeling it.
I am fighting against my devils snare and it binds me even further. I know that I need to give in to it, but I don’t know how to and I continue to struggle and to fight.
I am lucky that I have friends team H who are poking through and brining light to the situation. Easing the bind momentarily. But I know it is only momentarily, and I know that the only one who is able to release me is me. I also know that the only one that can bring enough light to loosen the weeds to make it easier for me to escape is God.
Frozen’s “let it go” didn’t seem sufficient, but the devils snare is the perfect metaphor. Now I know what I need to do, but I have to allow myself to do it!