I’m a reflective person… I know that will come as a shock to my regular readers! We are often encouraged to reflect on things, but it is something I seem to do quite regularly, but why reflect?
Last night I was watching Moana for the first time! When the main character Moana is on the boat trying to guide herself across the sea, another character ‘Maui’ says “It’s called wayfinding, princess. It’s not just sails and knots, it’s seeing where you’re going in your mind. Knowing where you are by knowing where you’ve been.”
I loved this quote. Yes it may be good guidance for finding your way across an ocean, but how perfect it is for life. We live in a time where we’re told to live in the moment, or to make a to do list with everything that we’re expected to achieve. But actually the only way we can fully understand the situation we are in, is if we reflect on where we have been, and what we have experienced. Once we can accept where we’ve been, the situation we’re in, then we can start to move forward.
This year has not been great, and I’ve been asked a few times questions such as “do you blame God for what’s happening?” Or “do you feel you’re being punished?” Or “have you lost your faith?” These are just a few of a variety of similar questions! The truth is i haven’t blamed anyone or anything. It’s just something that has been a part of my journey this year. Yes it’s been a bit rubbish, I’ve been frustrated and have felt utterly horrific at times but it’s happened, it’s part of something I’ve been living with for 25 years (that’s scary), and it’s had an impact on where I am now so will impact how I move Forward! Not just looking in to drugs very carefully before agreeing to take them!
But whilst I think about where I am now, and what has been, the one solid thing that has always been there has been my faith, and knowing that God is always there. I’ve questioned, I’ve been angry, I’ve explored, but on all the paths, the place I am now, and wherever the path will lead next – I know what my cornerstone is!
Let’s see what 2019 brings with it.