A few months ago there was one of those ‘getting to know you’ quizzes going around on Facebook. Where you had to respond to each of the different categories. I didn’t play it, partly because those things frustrate me, but also because one of the categories was fear, and I honestly couldn’t think of anything that I was afraid of. There’s things I don’t like, but I honestly don’t think there is anything I am afraid of.
Last Monday I did not want to go to work, the husband had the day off and I wanted to stay at home with him. His words to me were “you’ll love it once you get there”. He was right (I hate it when that happens)! I wasn’t really looking forward to today, as I had offered to help with something and I wasn’t really in the mood. But once I got there I really enjoyed myself. I got to spend some quality time with ladies from church, plan a service for a few weeks time and play hide and seek with a 3 year old. This evening I knew I needed to go for a run but I really didn’t want to go. I’ve been struggling the last few times I’ve run, especially breathing, and I didn’t want to feel like that. But I went and it was actually the best I have run for a long time, and I really enjoyed it.
I may not fear anything but I do dread things. I work out things in my mind, of how awful something is going to be and then try to create reasons and excuses for not doing it.
We all experience fear and dread, in the big decisions of life, but more so in the everyday. It’s not about that though, it’s about how you respond to it. Do you let it take over or do you take over it?
Before going on my run today I chose a different album to listen to than usual. It was Rend Collective – the art of celebration. This secured everything I’ve been anxious over the last couple of weeks. God is guiding my way, and he is able to do immeasurably more than I can imagine. I cannot give in to the fear and the dread, I have to live my life with enjoyment and expectation!!!! It’s so easy to write that, now to get on with it!