It’s been a crazy week. There have been lots of school work, school events and lots of social occasions as well. Don’t get me wrong, it has all been great, I’ve loved it all especially some of the special events and catching up with people, but it’s been hectic.
Today we had a lunch after church. I got to a point where I could only nod or shake my head because I knew that if I spoke I would start crying. So I wrote a fake text to tell my friend I needed to go home, put my coat and bag on and left. The tears started and carried on until I got home.
I was exhausted, definitely, but also I NEEDED to be alone. I’ve been surrounded by people all week. As I said I’ve loved it all but it had got to a point where I needed some time to be alone. I got home and text E who responded with lots of lovely things including ‘please pace yourself the next week – you have nothing to prove to anyone’!
Since my lifestyle has changed I have found that I have had a lot more energy, physically obviously, but also when it comes to socialising. But I think I have started to think that I have unending energy. Today I realised I do not.
I have limits, and that is absolutely fine. I just need to recognise them. Today I knew that I wasn’t really up for a meal after church but I felt it was right for me to stay, I had said I would help so therefore I should. However, I should have listened to myself. I should have gone to church, made my apologies and come home.
Once home I didn’t collapse on the sofa, I did the jobs I needed to do, but I was on my own, and that was what I needed.
We’re not invincible, we all have limits, but that’s OK! Speaking of which I’m going to bed. Goodnight!